pcs with psyche

[diabolizes]

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[chrysaline]

[ She cocks her head a little at that, but it gets filed away for later. The things she needs to ask about cultivation could fill a book. ]

You know... it's a little unfair to give me a reason like that. It makes it too hard to scold you. [ Her heart hurts a little, actually. ] I'm glad your sister was able to mend things for you both.

[ Can she even feel pleased about confirming her dog guess like this?? ]

[diabolizes]

[ And it would take a whole book to explain too… poor Psyche. ]

Haha! Well, don’t feel bad about it. Things were mended and we grew up together well despite all of it.

[chrysaline]

You love your siblings deeply, don't you? [ It's sweet. He gets a cheek kiss just for that. ] I hope you grew out of running away from the people who care about you, too.

[ Should she hold out hope for that? With a little laugh, she adds under her breath: ] I thought it was dogs.

[diabolizes]

[ He's gonna latch onto what she whispers so he doesn't have to think about running away from people. ]

You could tell?

[chrysaline]

You only named three animals, didn't you? Rabbits, cats, and dogs. You didn't mind Fou, and you were taking care of Chai's cat... I know they're not quite typical ones, but it was a guess.

[ Yeah!! Look at the deductive prowess she's gained over the last year. Hehe. ]

[diabolizes]

…Not bad.

[ Wow, she’s pretty good. ]

I used to fight with dogs for food scraps as a child.

[chrysaline]

[ Something like that, hm... She slides her hand up his arm, reflexively feeling for injuries that would have long-since healed. ]

I wonder if the things that scare us as children ever really stop being frightening.

[ Those years must have been so hard. But he's resisted her calling it that before, so she won't press. ]

[diabolizes]

[ Thankfully, she won’t find any old injuries. ]

I doubt it. Those are formative years. Sometimes, the things we experience will shape the rest of our lives.

[chrysaline]

[ Her hold on his arm tightens reflexively at that, but she gives a little nod of agreement. ]

I suppose so... I'm sorry. [ That it happened, or for stirring up those memories? Both, likely. ]

[diabolizes]

[ He shakes his head, bringing a hand up to rest over the one she has on his arm. ]

The past is the past and you bringing it up cannot hurt me. Don't be sorry for it.

[chrysaline]

[ She glances down at his hand, and then up at his face again before she gives a wry little smile. ]

Alright. But you'll tell me if I do, won't you? Just because you're used to being strong doesn't mean you should always have to be. Everyone has things that hurt them.

[diabolizes]

I will.

[ He smiles. While he may not do so every single time out of habit, he’ll try. ]

Can I ask you to do the same in return?

[chrysaline]

[ She nods, though her brow furrows for just a second. It's only habit. He said he would, so... she won't hold back with him. ]

I can do that. There's nothing I mind telling you. But some things I might not know how to talk about.

[diabolizes]

What might those things be about?

[ She doesn’t need to talk about them directly, not yet. After all, there are things Wei Wuxian cannot even describe himself. ]

[chrysaline]

[ She reaches up to wind her fingers through his hair again, studying the line of his jaw as she tries to think. ]

There's... some things in my childhood I can't remember clearly. I'll do the best I can. And... [ She bites her lip uncertainly. ] ...well, Eros. Not that I need to talk about him.

[ Most men wouldn't want to hear about their lover's previous fiance, right? This is probably more comfortable for him, too. ]

[diabolizes]

You can if you would like to.

[ He furrows his brows. Is she afraid he’ll be jealous? ]

The past is the past. It doesn’t matter to me who you were with, or what you did together. Feeling jealous over it would be ridiculous.

[chrysaline]

[ She shakes her head quickly. The idea of talking about Eros now, when she's happy, curdles her stomach. ]

I wouldn't. I mean, maybe I will. I don't want to hide things, but...

[ She gives a crooked little smile and cups his cheek briefly in her hand. ]

The past is the past. And you have nothing to be jealous over. But you might be the first man I've ever met who could say that and mean it.

[diabolizes]

[ He leans into that touch, momentarily closing his eyes. ]

Jealousy has never helped anyone, and it certainly wouldn’t help me. I’m fine with the way things have gone for me, so I have no reason to feel it. And in the end, if I’m the one you pick over him, then I don’t care about what’s happened before.

[chrysaline]

You are. I wonder how different everything would have been, if you'd been the one I met.

[ A silly daydream, considering the differences in their worlds. But she strokes her thumb along his cheekbone absentmindedly. ]

I don't think I have it in me to be jealous, either. I want you to be happy. If it's not with me, then... all I ask is that you tell me.

[diabolizes]

[ He wonders too, if he wouldn’t have felt so alone for so long. ]

It’s a bit of a relief that we’re on the same page, isn’t it? I would rather you tell me too.

[ He would be hurt, sure, but it’s easier to stomach honesty. Wei Wuxian falls silent as a thoughtful look settles on his face. ]

I think you’re really great, Psyche.

[chrysaline]

[ Ah, that's still a little embarrassing to hear. She smiles softly and drops her gaze again. ]

And I think you're wonderful. We really do end up agreeing a lot, don't we?

[diabolizes]

We do. It's almost surprising. I never thought you would agree with me on so many things.

[ She's so... prim and proper.

Well, on the first impression. ]

[chrysaline]

Even though we're from such different worlds [ literally and otherwise ] I think we see things similarly. It isn't just because you reminded me of Medea a little at first.

[ Though that certainly didn't hurt. ]

[diabolizes]

No? What else is it?

[ Enlighten him! ]

[chrysaline]

Hmmmm...

[ She frames his face with her hands and frowns thoughtfully as she looks into his eyes. How to put it. ]

We want the same kind of things. We both value honesty. We can't stand people who would take advantage of those weaker than them. We want to be stronger for the things we want to protect, strong enough to be relied on and never falter. If it's for that... both of us will make a decision and refuse to look back. And we're afraid of being a burden to the people we care about. Am I wrong?

[ She knows how badly she's been wrong before, how much what she wants to see can distort what's there. But he's had every opportunity to show who he is in these circumstances. She believes, this time. ]