I would bother Lan Zhan all the time. I even call him by his birth name just to irritate him. I doubt he sees me as anything other than an acquaintance.
[ He sighs. ]
Would either of you like someone that publicly pelted you with flowers, or that pestered you constantly when you're supervising them during their punishment, or if that person pawned off rabbits on you as a joke?
You know, I really don't want to say it because I don't want another man in your thoughts, but I fear what Psyche will do if this persists.
You really are someone who likes to goad and tease your crushes. [ He seems more amused ] Let me ask you this, Wei-gege... Would you ever keep seeking someone out if they did all of that to you if you didn't like them?
I think it’s good for me to know, about my own feelings and what he might have felt too. I wish I could have seen the care he felt, or that he could have expressed it, but…
What does it say about him then? You did all of that and he still spent time with you. He's also the one that was concerned in your memory, right? Why would he be concerned about you if you were just an acquaintance?
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[ This is a test. Will he disappoint her. ]
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Ah, I suppose we really were closer to acquaintances.
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What's her deal? ]
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Don't worry about it.
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I would bother Lan Zhan all the time. I even call him by his birth name just to irritate him. I doubt he sees me as anything other than an acquaintance.
[ He sighs. ]
Would either of you like someone that publicly pelted you with flowers, or that pestered you constantly when you're supervising them during their punishment, or if that person pawned off rabbits on you as a joke?
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You know, I really don't want to say it because I don't want another man in your thoughts, but I fear what Psyche will do if this persists.
You really are someone who likes to goad and tease your crushes. [ He seems more amused ] Let me ask you this, Wei-gege... Would you ever keep seeking someone out if they did all of that to you if you didn't like them?
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[ But, uh... give him a moment. ]
I suppose not. Of course, I'd find it funny, but I don't think most would.
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Hm... so, if you don't think he found it funny, why do you think he still wanted your company?
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No. He did not have a crush on me.
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I think he must have loved you very deeply.
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Just. Give him a moment while he short circuits a bit. ]
Ahaha... I doubt that. There's no way.
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Well... There's no way for me to say for certain. But that's what I believe, anyway.
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[ He frowns. ]
I know I liked him on some level, but it was never going to happen, so I won’t dwell on it.
[ When he realized he liked men, he did some Thinking and then decided that those thoughts belonged at the back of his mind. ]
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[ For instance, like whether she should she have left this alone? She'll reach over to squeeze his hand in apology. ]
I don't think it's something you need to dwell on. I hope it can just be a good memory instead, to know you were cared for.
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I think it’s good for me to know, about my own feelings and what he might have felt too. I wish I could have seen the care he felt, or that he could have expressed it, but…
[ He shakes his head. ]
The past is in the past.
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Maybe it's a good reminder for me to be clear with how I feel, when it's really important.
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I think so. It's a good reminder for me to think about those things as well.
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Anyone would be concerned over a childhood acquaintance. I really doubt he had a crush or anything of the sort.