[ He had felt guilt too, wondering if he was leaving when things were finally going to improve for him. But he knows now that they won’t, and he has a sinking feeling that the people he saved won’t be there when he comes back, because he wasn’t around to protect them from other Sects and the fierce corpses and spirits on the mounds themselves.
There’s no future there either. ]
Medea is wise, isn’t she? [ He smiles, opening up a bottle of vodka. ] I think we both had similar thoughts and fears, but we reached our conclusions through different methods.
[ She watches his expression with a soft smile, half wondering at the direction of his thoughts. It's another reason she hadn't wanted to voice her own doubts earlier. He seems to feel responsibility so strongly, and she knows there are people at home that he loves. If she'd made him second-guess his own decision... that would have been even worse. ]
She's the same age as you. I wonder if that means I'll be that wise in three more years? I really hope it doesn't take a full eighteen. [ Adding in her years in the basement, that is. ] I'm glad, though. That you want to move forward, too.
[ She'd been more than half-afraid that he'd head back to accept whatever terrible situation was awaiting him there. Maybe she was projecting, that time. ]
[ Honestly, he doesn’t know if years make someone wise. Can Wei Wuxian even consider himself wise? ]
I feel a sense of clarity, if that makes sense.
[ It’s hard to explain what being out of his world has done. It’s a new perspective, possibly. ]
But I have no doubt in my mind that this decision will move the three of us forward. Perhaps it’s a selfish decision, but what else can we do when we’re faced with it?
[ She nods, glancing down at the bar counter with a smile. Clarity. That's exactly it, somehow. ]
It's self-serving of me to say so, but... I think it's not so bad to be a little selfish. The people who love you and want you happy are depending on you to be able to do that when it counts.
[ She really hopes she doesn't have to let them down, too. But if nothing else, her mind is made up. ]
[ Psyche glances up at him quickly, her eyes going just a little wider with surprise. Maybe he really does know her a little too well.
After a second her pinky tightens around his, and she laughs softly. ]
I won't be mad, if it comes to that. We'll both do our best for what we believe in. And if it's that easy to stop me, then it just means I have a long way to go still. ...If I see a need to, I'd stop you, too.
I know that well, Psyche. That could I feel in my heart that you would stop me should you ever felt the need to is one of the things that drew me to you.
[ He'll never compromise on his belief that she has a lot more inner strength than she believes. ]
[ That brings a startled blush to her face. What was it Eros had said? "Because you're weak, you understand those who are weak"? It's such a contrast, again. ]
Well... if you say something like that, all I can do is answer that I'd definitely manage, somehow.
I will. [ She says it with a little more confidence this time, eyes creasing in amusement. ] ...But I'm a little glad that I can count on Wang Lu to help me, too.
[ That probably also counts as being resourceful. ]
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There’s no future there either. ]
Medea is wise, isn’t she? [ He smiles, opening up a bottle of vodka. ] I think we both had similar thoughts and fears, but we reached our conclusions through different methods.
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She's the same age as you. I wonder if that means I'll be that wise in three more years? I really hope it doesn't take a full eighteen. [ Adding in her years in the basement, that is. ] I'm glad, though. That you want to move forward, too.
[ She'd been more than half-afraid that he'd head back to accept whatever terrible situation was awaiting him there. Maybe she was projecting, that time. ]
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I feel a sense of clarity, if that makes sense.
[ It’s hard to explain what being out of his world has done. It’s a new perspective, possibly. ]
But I have no doubt in my mind that this decision will move the three of us forward. Perhaps it’s a selfish decision, but what else can we do when we’re faced with it?
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It's self-serving of me to say so, but... I think it's not so bad to be a little selfish. The people who love you and want you happy are depending on you to be able to do that when it counts.
[ She really hopes she doesn't have to let them down, too. But if nothing else, her mind is made up. ]
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I think you may be right about that. [ He smiles, just a little. ] I do hope you’re thinking the same thing for yourself as well.
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[ But the thought makes her laugh softly as she glances up at him again through her eyelashes. ]
I'll do my best if you will.
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Then let's make a promise to do our best. Shall we seal the deal?
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[ She pauses a moment before putting out her own pinky. Promises are important, she wants to be certain what she's committing to. ]
To trying to be happy. Whatever that means to each of us?
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[ He smiles, taking her pinky. ]
Though if I must stop you, know that I will and that it comes from my own selfishness.
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After a second her pinky tightens around his, and she laughs softly. ]
I won't be mad, if it comes to that. We'll both do our best for what we believe in. And if it's that easy to stop me, then it just means I have a long way to go still. ...If I see a need to, I'd stop you, too.
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[ He'll never compromise on his belief that she has a lot more inner strength than she believes. ]
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[ That brings a startled blush to her face. What was it Eros had said? "Because you're weak, you understand those who are weak"? It's such a contrast, again. ]
Well... if you say something like that, all I can do is answer that I'd definitely manage, somehow.
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[ He laughs brightly. ]
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[ That probably also counts as being resourceful. ]