[ Caring about him isn't easy? She wonders how different things would have been here if that were true at all. ]

...Caring about you is so much easier than imagining being able to stop. Both of you. That won't ever change.

[ And she really can't keep stepping around her own answer, so. She smooths her hand over Wei Wuxian's hair again. ]

I'm not afraid of change. I want it... more than anything. But I... I just need a little longer to think. Even if I can't go with you, it really would be enough for me to know that you're both happy.