[ She nods, glancing down at the bar counter with a smile. Clarity. That's exactly it, somehow. ]

It's self-serving of me to say so, but... I think it's not so bad to be a little selfish. The people who love you and want you happy are depending on you to be able to do that when it counts.

[ She really hopes she doesn't have to let them down, too. But if nothing else, her mind is made up. ]