It actually takes Wei Wuxian a second or two to respond. ]
You aren't wrong. In fact, you're quite perceptive, Haruka. I had no choice but to develop that callousness during the war, and it's stuck with me sense. It's impossible to get rid of once you have it.
You had to do what you can to survive, and... sometimes when you're hurt, you can't always heal.
[Which... maybe he's making some assumptions, there, but wars are terrible things. There's so much loss, and danger, and things you don't want to be done but you have to for your survival...
Which isn't something Haruka can relate to, and it's something he knows he can't. For a brief moment, he feels almost guilty, like he should be doing more for Wei Wuxian then he already is, like there's some burden he has to help him with, but...
That's awful presumptuous, isn't it? Haruka isn't anyone that important, or special, and he can't change anything about what Wei Wuxian has and will deal with in his life.]
But... maybe it's for the best to not be entirely soft-hearted, if you're not sure how safe you can be. I don't think being callous and protecting yourself makes you a bad person, Wei Wuxian-san.
[He's sure the things he's done don't hold a candle to the things Wei Wuxian has done or been through, but...
He would hate it if someone had given up on him, just for that. It would make it harder to stand himself.]
I'm not sure if all of that matters - I mean. Of course it does, but...
[He hugs his legs a bit tighter, resting his head against his knees as he looks at Wei Wuxian.]
You made your choices and you're living with them, but that's not all that will make you good or bad. There's always the days ahead of us, too. And while we're here, I can support you with them, if... if you want me to! Of course, if you don't want that all that much, that's fine. It's whatever.
[ That little attitude briefly reminds him of home and he has to hold back a laugh, because even someone like Wei Wuxian knows when laughter is wholly inappropriate. After a long silence with a slight frown on his face, he does allow himself a smile at least. ]
Ah, bold words, Haruka. [ A pause. ] Well, right up until the end, that is.
[ But that's enough bullying. Haruka was sincere in his offer, so Wei Wuxian should show some of that sincerity back. ]
If you're willing to offer support, then sure. Let's support one another, shall we?
[Wow! He’s got a reputation to upkeep and if he’s sincere, he’ll probably get made fun of! Though he’s already getting made fun of, so what does he have to lose.]
Shut up.
[There no heat to it, just whiny pouting.]
Supporting each other… that sounds better then it just being me relying on you.
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It actually takes Wei Wuxian a second or two to respond. ]
You aren't wrong. In fact, you're quite perceptive, Haruka. I had no choice but to develop that callousness during the war, and it's stuck with me sense. It's impossible to get rid of once you have it.
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[Which... maybe he's making some assumptions, there, but wars are terrible things. There's so much loss, and danger, and things you don't want to be done but you have to for your survival...
Which isn't something Haruka can relate to, and it's something he knows he can't. For a brief moment, he feels almost guilty, like he should be doing more for Wei Wuxian then he already is, like there's some burden he has to help him with, but...
That's awful presumptuous, isn't it? Haruka isn't anyone that important, or special, and he can't change anything about what Wei Wuxian has and will deal with in his life.]
But... maybe it's for the best to not be entirely soft-hearted, if you're not sure how safe you can be. I don't think being callous and protecting yourself makes you a bad person, Wei Wuxian-san.
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…I’d like to think I’m not, and while there’s a lot that you don’t know about me, perhaps it does say something that you think that about me at all.
[ Haruka is wiser than Wei Wuxian gave him credit for… maybe he should stop making so many assumptions. ]
I’ve made the choices I have made because I believe them to be the right thing to do. While I’ve never doubted it… the support is nice.
[ He doesn’t have much of it. ]
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He would hate it if someone had given up on him, just for that. It would make it harder to stand himself.]
I'm not sure if all of that matters - I mean. Of course it does, but...
[He hugs his legs a bit tighter, resting his head against his knees as he looks at Wei Wuxian.]
You made your choices and you're living with them, but that's not all that will make you good or bad. There's always the days ahead of us, too. And while we're here, I can support you with them, if... if you want me to! Of course, if you don't want that all that much, that's fine. It's whatever.
[tsuns]
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Ah, bold words, Haruka. [ A pause. ] Well, right up until the end, that is.
[ But that's enough bullying. Haruka was sincere in his offer, so Wei Wuxian should show some of that sincerity back. ]
If you're willing to offer support, then sure. Let's support one another, shall we?
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Shut up.
[There no heat to it, just whiny pouting.]
Supporting each other… that sounds better then it just being me relying on you.
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Then we’ll go with that.
[ He grins. ]
I get into trouble, just so you know. That doesn’t mean you have to follow me into it.
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[Still, he's... a little bit relieved, after this conversation, and starts unfolding himself from how he's been curled up.]
I should... head to my cabana. Thank you, Wei Wuxian-san.
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[ Wei Wuxian will stay out here, though. He's a night owl. ]
I'll see you around.